Over the past 6 months there have been several different phases:
1) Shock: Down syndrome... what??
2) Denial: Maybe they got it wrong.
3) Depression: I can't do this.
3) Pull together: We will do this.
4) Reality. This isn't going to go away. Now what?
5) Realization: Look at our amazing baby, who has Down syndrome.
6) Acceptance: Look at our amazing baby, Luke.
The first 4 phases went quickly. Number 5 was with me for a while. The words "Down syndrome" went through my head every time I looked at Luke, even if I wasn't trying to think about it. Now I am in between 5 and 6. I still think it sometimes, but other times I forget he even has Down syndrome.
It's hard to know what the next phases will be, but I have a good idea about one that might hit pretty soon. I get these weekly updates from BabyCenter.com. I have gotten them since I was pregnant with Gwenyth almost 6 years ago and it's a fun way to know what is coming up, both with pregnancy and with child development. Up until today, Luke has been pretty much right on target. The one I got today, 6 months, talked about sitting up and crawling ... two things we are not ready for. Luke can scoot forward and roll over, but actual unassisted sitting and crawling may take us a bit longer to achieve. I knew this was coming, but sometimes it's the little things that snap you back to reality.
So, I think phase 7 is going to be "Pull Together II: Don't give up."
Here are a couple of photos of Luke "sitting up" and "crawling."
We'll get there!